Saturday, October 9, 2010
Talk about a string of emotions this month things have been up and down like a a rocky roller coaster. It all started the first week of September, I received a phone call that a friend from college was killed in a motorcycle accident. It hurt me so bad because this person was a huge part of my life back in Grambling. I have so many memories of him that it is hard to believe he's gone and I wont get the chance to see him laugh again. Two days later my best friend calls me and tells me she is engaged. Of course I was happy and extremely excited for her. She has been seeing this man for a while and was very honest about her desire to be married to him. A week after finding out about my best friend's engagement I traveled to New Jersey for the funeral.
On September 11 after having an early dinner with the family who had travel to DC for the 9/11 Memorial Services at the Pentagon, I received a text that another friend from Grambling had also died. He too was involved in a accident that not only took his life but the of his wife and kids a few months back. He lived an entire 15 weeks after they perished.
Later on in the evening of the 11th one of my cousins was married. It was so emotional for the entire family because both of her parents have passed away. I was happy that the family made it in support of her union. I can't even imagine how I would feel walking down the isle and neither one of my parents are their to share such a joyous occasion with me. As soon as she walked down the aisle all I saw was her tears and I began to cry too. It wasn't because I'm super emotional and I cry at the drop of a dime, but it was because I understood her thoughts. I knew what she was thinking. Even though it was a joyous occasion it was still sad because we all knew who was missing.
The weekend following the 11th one of my first cousins was married to her high school sweet heart. The wedding was so sweet and very pure. Like my other cousin I cried when I saw her come down the aisle. Of course my reason for crying this time was different. I remember when she was 15 years old and we was sitting in my Grandmothers living room having "the talk" with her. She and her now husband had started to become inseparable and my Grandmother wanted me to talk to her about it. All I remember is her saying how much she loved him and that she wanted to marry him. On the inside I laughed wondering what she knew about love at 15. I remember after what felt like hours later her agreeing to wait until she finished high school before she did so. That is exactly what she did too...lol
That brings us to this past weekend when I received a BBM(BlackBerry Messenger) that another one of my very good friends is engaged. This message came on the same day as my other friend from Grambling's funeral, that I couldn't make but I was very much so there in spirit. Yet again setting my emotions on another rocky dip and spin. This roller coaster ride seems like it just wont stop!
At the end of the day I can not pin point why those things happened when they did and how they did but I can say this. I've grown more the past few weeks then I ever had. I am appreciative for those relationships that I've had and even more appreciative for the ones to come. I just hope that you all do too. Meanwhile I hope you also are living your life to the fullest. It is so precious and we never know when God will call us home.
Until next time Peace and Prosperity!!!